What happens when...
What happens when you finally realize that you are happy. What does that look like? This moment in time isn't something that you can predict, it isn't something you can rush it isn't something that you can make happen. It just does.
I was lucky enough to be on the back of my sled, with 7 of my dogs in the middle of Willow Swamp trail in Willow Alaska. And BAM - It was that simple. It was that easy. And it was amazing. I was able to capture the moment with my phone...
It has taken me YEARS... To be honest I don't think I have ever really been happy with who I am or accepted the fact that I am a little different than most women! I have struggled with my femininity and what makes me feel good about myself my entire life. As a heterosexual female it is not common place to feel most comfortable in overall bibs, winter boots and a sweatshirt. I hate wearing make-up (it makes my eyes itch), I don't like manicured nails on my hands - I like dirt under my nails. I do however like to have a good pedicure! If I never had to go to a mall again I would die a happy person, anything I need I can use Amazon Prime!
I've been struggling for years to find out what the heck makes me happy! Where do I need to be? Who do I need to be in order to make this happen? I think we all have our own journey in this world and by making our life choices based on what we think it best its kind of like one of those books that has several different endings. If I go down road A I get to this, if I go down road B I get to this. Everyone's journey is different and everyone's choices change as we move through life.
I have to say after many, many years of struggle to figure out what makes this girl tick, I've finally figured it out. I like simple. I like calm. I like happy. I like me. I like my dogs. I like my family. I like my friends. I like adventure. I like laughing. I like helping. I like being positive. That all sounds simple, but like most people we like to belong. We like to be part of the "in" crowd, we like to be liked, but finding that crowd sometimes is hard! I have my tribe spread all over the country (Literally) but I have an accumulation of amazing beings that have come into my life and their energy and personalities only bring positive energy forward. I love my tribe!
To live is to grow and to grow is to live! Change is good but at the same time a little bit of routine is good too. There are bumps in the road but how you handle them and how you move forward is very important. While we need to treat others as we want to be treated (Thanks for that mom) we really need to make sure that we are taking care of ourselves first. Sometimes that is making a decision that is best for YOU and not for someone else. Compromise is essential in relationships but when you are the one that is compromising all the time that's not exactly the idea of the action. We have to be true to ourselves. This is very important. I think that we all need to remember this and I have to remember this as well. This applies to both personal and romantic relationships. Finding my happiness was really just being OK with making decisions that made me happy and not someone else. For some people, that is very hard thing to over come, this includes me!
Anyway the ramblings ... the ramblings of a musher / veterinary technician / dabbling writer-author...Enjoy every day people!