**Caution lots of adult words to follow** Fear, abandonment, cold, fear.... those are a few things that went through my head. I even let out a scream "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" as I watched my team slowly move away from me, sled upright and down a wide open river trail. "Cole, baby come back" "Cole, Two-Step boys please come back" I said in the silence of the trail, as I fell to my knees and started sobbing. What the fuck was I going to do. I was tired, I didn't know where I was e